Exchange Student Programme (?)

Dua hari ini, gw dateng ke acara Education Festival (Edufest) Unpad 2010. Salah satu seminarnya ada tentang "Exchange Student". Di situ dijelasin tata cara pendaftaran sampe universitas-universitas mana aja yang bekerjasama dengan Unpad buat pertukaran pelajar tadi. Jujur, gw mupeng binti ngiler abis dengan senior-senior yang udah pernah nyicipin exchange student (yang mostly) ke Jepang (Tenri n Rikkyo Univ) sama Korea (Ajou Univ). Gw juga ga takut-takut amat secara ada anak yang IPK-nya dibawah gw tapi dia bisa dapet. Cuma ada satu ganjelan di hati (sok dramatisir):

Pertanyaan dosen ga yang bilang: "Buat apa ikutan exchange student?." Sebenernya karena ini isi sms jadi gw agak bingung dengan stress syllable-nya. jadi gw juga bingung maksudnya nge-tes apa ngelarang? karena memang kalo ikutan program begini harus rela "cuti" dan "ketinggalan mata kuliah" yang berarti "Ketinggalan lulus juga."

Gw bingung -________-"

E.D.U.C.A.T.I.O.N

"An Education" is a film based on British Journalist Lynn Barber writing. The story is about Jenny Mellor (Carey Mulligan), A-Level Student in one of High School in England in 1960's. She wishes to continue her study in Oxford University to read English Language and Literature, but she is also interested in France's books, art and music. Her father is perfectionist so that he always forces Jenny to do the things perfectly. Her life was changed when she met David Goldman (Peter Sarsgaard), who shows her how to live a life without studying. Then she realized that education is the most important part of her life.

I Thought.........

"I just feel like I really need to lock myself in a room and not think about anything but writing."

 -Carrie Bradshaw, Sex and the City 2-

I'm just too exhausted with all the assignments I've to do, all the lectures, and ALL THE SLIDES AND PRESENTATIONS...

I just need a break... 2 days-off'll be better... :(

Just a Quote

The Greatest thing about being writer is uncovering the truth...                            

-Harriet the Spy: Blog Wars-

Guilty Pleasure Song of the Week

This is a song from 2PM titled Tik Tok... it was released on the beginning of this year but I've just listened this week... lol
This is the lyrics...

*) Hangul

(준호) Nobody knows 내가 매일 너를 이렇게 원하는걸
무대 뒤에서 널 안을때마다 내 가슴이 터지는걸
(찬성) 사람들 앞에서 우린 어색하게 인사하지만
돌아서고나면 너를 제일 잘 아는건 나잖아

(우영) 니 눈빛으로 말하는게 더 크게 들려 내 귀엔 그래
(닉쿤) 날 원하는게 너 목마른 게 우린 서로에게 이렇게 미쳐

(준수) 아무도 몰래 사랑하는게 니가 정말 내 여자라는게
매일 나를 너무 미치게 해 이렇게 너를 너를 원해

(우영) 이리와봐 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok)
너만 보여 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok)
하루종일 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok)
내 가슴이 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok, Tik Tok)

(윤은혜) Nobody knows 너와 내가 매일 이렇게 사랑하는걸
너 아닌 누구도 들어올 자린 없는걸 내 가슴에

(우영)
(Tik) 첨부터 알았어 난
(Tik) 뭔가가 있었어 넌
(Tik) 니가 나를 보는 그 눈빛에

(준호)
(Tok) 짜릿한 니 사랑에
(Tok) 나는 늘 목마른걸
(Tok) 아무도 몰래 널 자꾸 찾게되

(준수) 아무도 몰래 사랑하는게 니가 정말 내 여자라는게
매일 나를 너무 미치게 해 이렇게 너를 너를 원해

(우영) 이리와봐 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok)
너만 보여 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok)
하루종일 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok)
내 가슴이 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok, Tik Tok)

(택연) 넌 나만의 Star 아무도 아무것도 몰라 너는 걱정마
내 두 눈을 봐 내가 지켜줄께 나는 이렇게 니 옆에 있어
(It’s our Secret It’s our Secret It’s our Secret it’s taking control of me)
모두의 시선을 넘어 만나는 만남 부담은 내게 덜어
꿈속에선 남들처럼 너와 당당히 손을 잡고 걸어
매일 바쁜 하루 속 내 일과 꿈 마저도 잊게 만드는 우리 사랑
멈출 줄 모르는 시계바늘

(준수) 아무도 몰래 사랑하는게 니가 정말 내 여자라는게
매일 나를 너무 미치게 해 이렇게 너를 너를 원해

(우영) 이리와봐 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok)
너만 보여 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok)
하루종일 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok)
내 가슴이 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok, Tik Tok)

Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok x3
Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok, Tik Tok

When Jerk Talks About Friendship

it was happened about one and a half year ago, when I was in my last year of High School. I fought with my "only" bestfriend that I ever had. I mad at her because of a silly reason, "she didn't care about me and left me alone when I really needed her at that time". I became unstable after I was rejected by UI, UGM, UNS, and Unila (what a strike, isn't it? lol). Unfortunately, she had already been accepted in UGM at Public Health department. I thought that she was very lucky to be accepted while I hadn't. I was too scared, I NEED HER BADLY! I forgot that the only campus she wanted to study in was just "Medical Faculty, University of Indonesia". She wanted to be a doctor because her parents are both doctors. So, as you have predicted, she rejected UGM. My anger became uncontrolled anymore. I mad at her. I didn't talk to her until the graduation day. Moreover, She was very close to one of my biology teacher in GO, where I had my extra private class for preparing all the university tests and National Final Examination. He is a JERK! Totally JERK! I hate him so much for everything he had done to my bestfriend and all the teachers there. (I can't tell you the whole story, sorry. If you know it, you will be as mad as me)

But one day, he sat in front of me while I was studying. He said something that I will never forget till now. He said: "Friendship is not about being possessive. You can't force someone to be with you all the time. She has a right to do the things that she prior to do for her life. You are totally a bad friend to threaten your bestfriend like that, you know. don't you understand that she needs your support to reach her dream to studying in UI's Medical faculty, huh? don't you understand that she is also frustrated to be rejected by UGM's and Undip's Medical Faculty? DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT?? SHE NEEDS YOU BUT SHE NEVER ASKS YOU TO! Shame on You girl. Remember this: You will regret yourself when you lose her. You are so stupid."

For months, I didn't communicate with her. I decided to study at home and never go to the private lesson anymore. After I was rejected by ITB twice and have been accepted to English Department Unpad, I talked to her about what he had said to me months ago. She said: "I have to say that jerk's thoughts were true. How could he said to you like that? hhah, forget it."

After that, I learned not to force my friends to be with me all the time. I never ask something that I can handle by myself even it is very hard to be solved alone, never be jealous with them, and easily shows my anger. I want to be a tolerate friend and try not to be such a selfish and possessive friend who shows my ego. They live their life, I live mine. Including my boy. I often ask him to be mad at me if I am being possessive (because I know that he doesn't like threaten possessively, and so do I). I don't want to do the same mistakes anymore.

Now, her dream came true. She continue her study at UI's medical faculty. Although I can't continue my study at STEI ITB, I'm happy to see her happy studying there. She deserve it more than me.

I hope you learn something from my write that your friends must be love and care about you although they are far away from you.

And one thing, after one and a half year, I have to confess something:

DARN YOU JERK YOU TAUGHT ME A THING......!!! (sigh)

Between Expectation, Dreams, and Desire

If I have a chance to say it (again) to you that my sophomore year is truly "amazingly" crazy, seems like I'm going to be treated as "ambitious" "arrogant" person(or perhaps you have another words which are perfectly describe my thoughts, eh?) if you read this post. However, my thoughts are just concern about "what am I going to do next after my university years??". It bothers me a lot! because if I planned and the plan didn't go on its tracks, I would be suffering (again) for the second times! and I WONT...!! but if I didn't plan, I would be overboard when the graduation comes. 

Does it sound too dramatic?? and pathetic??

I Don't Believe I Wrote This for My First Prose Essay Assignment... -__-"

Dita Ayu Astari Darwin

180410090009

Class A

Bridget Jones’ Diary as an Epistolary Novel

Fielding's Bridget Jones 'Diary takes the epistolary novel to the digital age by introducing digital communication to the genre which transforms interpersonal relations. By plotting using the digital communication, I argued that a logical point of view I labelled “Myopia” affects the focalizer point of view. By using e-mail and text message, the relationship between Bridget and Daniel becomes more private notwithstanding the fact that they are in the different room in their office, seems like there is a private connection between them although there are a lot of people working in the same building, same office, and same floor. Nobody knows what they are talking about in e-mail and they don’t know what happen around the office during the e-mailing. It is ironic because Bridget and Daniel and the other workers are in the same building, same office, and the same floor.  Perhaps, Perpetua don’t know that Bridget and Her Boss, Daniel e-mailing almost every day during the work hour. It can be worse because Bridget desk is beside hers (in the end she knew it and startled). It means that because of the digital communication, the interpersonal relationship clearly seen inside the focalizer, blurred outside the focalizer. As the work of myopia disease, eyes can’t see anything when it is far and clearly seen when it is near, based on the passage:

Messages from "Home"

Papa said : "Yang bener kuliahnya. Tiga setengah tahun ya Ta..." (the first one is ok, but the second one??? Maaan...)

Mama said : "Jaga kesehatan, Jangan sering pulang kemaleman. Jangan sering p*****n" (Njeehhh mom... ^.^)

Tio said : "Jangan lupa DVD gw!!!" (PETAL!!! minta dilempar sepatu....) "...ntar kalo pulang ajarin gw lagi sih, stress gw ga ada tempat nanya..." (insya Allah, kalo ga sibuk sama UNVIS ya...)

Hans said : "RUMAH KAKAK ITU DI SINI, BUKAN DI SANA...!!!! KALO GA BALIK - BALIK GAK USAH LAGI KE SINI" (WEITS DEK, INI CAPSLOCKNYA GIMANA MATIINNYA???????!!!) ---> sungguh sangat frontal kau dek.... T.T

Just a reply :

"I love you all. I'll try my best to the best I could. I'm not a perfect person actually, but hope someday I could make you all happy to say "She is my daughter/sister...." It's been a year and I'm a sophomore now. the lectures are getting much more difficult, the lectures' schedule is very tight, and the assignments..... are really - really freaking me out! wish I could increase my GPA. Please pray for me..."

Miss you all

dorms, Oct 30th, 2010

Your lovely daughter and sister 

Bla Bla Bla #3

Udah lama banget gw ga update nih blog. Gw tetep nulis kok, tapi sekarang udah gw pindahin ke buku schedule gw tersayang :) dan gw emang lebih sering having breakfast, lunch and dinner with it... (Boy I don't want you to go to mad... mad at me ^.^).

Kalo gw boleh bilang, I have a tight schedule this term... bener-bener padet. Kuliah hampir tiap hari dan selalu dari pagi sampe sore. Libur cuma hari Rabu, Sabtu, Minggu dan praktis gw abisin buat tugas yang seabrek... I need a break!! Masa' gw nge-date sama cowok gw aja sampe bawa-bawa bahan bacaan dan tugas?? emang dasar ni orang berdua spesies langka -__-" tapi mungkin alasan itu juga yang buat gw jadi jarang nge-blog, ol di komputer, dan yang paling signifikan adalah keeksisan gw di facebook; ganti status jadi 24 jam sekali atau lebih (tadinya kan 5 kali sehari, udah ngalahin minum obat), ditambah dengan akun twitter gw yang udah gw tutup karena "males ngeliatnyaaa...." -__-" tapi indikasi lainnya adalah, cucian dan gosokan sering numpuk, kamar sering berantakan dan kotor, dan kamar mandi jadi jarang ditengok (kalo udah sore banget, males mandi bawaannya -__-" apalagi air Jatinangor, tau sendiri lah dinginnya gimana -__-")

Tapi mengalami situasi yang menjemukan seperti ini membuat gw bertanya-tanya...

Waktu nyantai kayak semester kemaren, gw malah bingung kayak ga kuliah? sekarang sibuk ga ketulungan begini, kenapa gw malah ngeluh kecapekan???

Dasar Manusia... -__-"

In a Memoriam

Like a comet
Blazing 'cross the evening sky
Like a rainbow
Fading in the twinkling of an eye
Shiny and sparkly
And splendidly bright
Here one day
Gone one night
Like the loss of sunlight
On a cloudy afternoon
Like a castle
Built upon a sandy beach
Like a perfect flower
That is just beyond your reach
Born to amuse, to inspire, to delight
Here one day
Gone one night
Like a sunset
Dying with the rising of the moon
Gone too soon

Gone too soon

(Michael Jackson - Gone too soon)

Rest in Peace my friend... may Allah forgive your soul from sins and mistakes...

we love you, bud... :)

RIP Muhammad Agung Sugito (October 5th, 2010)

::...4 Months...::

Just wanna say...

"Mengenalmu adalah suatu anugerah, menyakitimu adalah suatu larangan, mendampingimu adalah suatu kebahagiaan, meninggalkanmu adalah suatu kebodohan... :)"

p.s: Kalo mau muntah siapin plastik dulu ya......

gw ga bisa bilang "langgeng yah" apalagi "semoga kita terus bersama"... gw cuma bisa bilang "semoga kita sama-sama dapet jodoh yang terbaik dari yang terbaik". Walaupun hati gw sekarang udah settle ke lo dan jujur gw ga mau ada yang lain lagi ngisi hati ini, gw ga bisa janjiin apa-apa ke lo. Gw takut, gw ga bisa menuhin janji itu.... tapi ada satu hal lagi yang mau gw bagi ke lo...

I love you more than yesterday, but not as much as I will do tomorrow...

good night, sleep tight, see ya tomorrow... :)

Bla Bla Bla #2

Wake Me up When September ends....!!!!

(Mata bengep sadar 4 tugas harus dikumpul besok... rrrr....)

Laugh out Loud

Mau gombal dikit hehehe....

"If I could be any part of you. I'd be your tears, to be conceived in your heart, born on your eyes, live on your chicks, and die in your lips"

*) Sila siapkan plastik untuk muntah

Sender: 0857*********

Bla Bla Bla

"To love somebody is not just a strong feeling--it is a decision, it is a judgment, it is a promise. If love were only a feeling, there would not be basis for the promise to love each other forever. A feeling may comes and it may go. How can I judge that it will stay forever, when our act doesn't involve judgment and decision?"

(Fromm: 1956:56)

Thus, I just want to say, Goodbye. Thank you for these amazing three years. I remain you as my brother. Hope you get a better life....

What if...

Lots of random stuffs spinning around my head when I had a dinner with my boy yesterday...

"What if I have cancer in my intestines, Hon?"

He sprout all the food out then look at me with worrisome.

"What are you talking about, Hon?"

I don't know why I said such kind of provocative words, I regret my self but it is too late...

"Do the endoscopy ASAP"

"I've scheduled it next month... I guess..."

"Great. I know how worse your medical record (*Gubrak, sempet2nya -___-"), I don't want you to belittling your disease anymore, Kay?"

 "I won't...."

Sillhoute: Mutun Beach

Ga tau kalo namanya siluet... jujur, di foto ini mode shot yang gw pake salah besar...!!! tapi yah, namanya newbie pikiran gw cuma mikir "nih objek BAGUS, CEPAT JEPRET!" maka simsalabim!! jadilah gambar-gambar ini...

feel free to comment and criticize...

 

 

 

My New Gears

Finally, after waiting for about a year, I can buy this gears. Once again I have to thank my father because of his permission (and also his money *lol), I can buy these gears (although I have to lie about the REAL price and pay the rest from my own pocket *rrrr). At least, I can learn more about photography with these newbie gears in my break from the lectures...

My new gears are Sony Alpha @230 for the body, Sony DT 18-55mm F3.5-5.6 SAM as the single lens, 3 adds steinzeiser lenses (AF digital wide angle in the front, macro lens 0,5 x 62mm, and EF lens 82mm as the UV filter).

These gears actually was my friends ( I mean, I buy the used gears), but because he bought it last April and he rarely use it and he wanted to buy the newest gears, he decided to sell it, and I'm so lucky to buy it with the best bargain price (*Rumus: Teman Lama = Minta murah *lol).

*baiklah, saatnya kuliah yang bener dan naikkan GPA supaya ortu seneng sambil berkarya. Hwaiting ^.^p

*Photo credit: Irfan Collection as his advertisement

Jadwal Kuliah Semester Tiga

Just want to remind how tight the lecture's schedule for this term... whoa,, take a look.

*) Monday

08:00 - 09:40 : Sejarah Kebudayaan Indonesia by: Team Teaching(@B203)

09:50 - 12:20 : Upper Intermediate Grammar by: DR. Sutiyono Mahdi (@C312)

12:30 - 14:40 : Reading Texts of Various Modes by: Ida Farida Sachmadi, S.S (@C308)

*) Tuesday

14:20 - 16:00 : Translating Specific English Texts by: Elvi Citraresmana, M.Hum (@C204) (with Class A 2008)

*) Thursday

08:00 - 09:40 : Development of English Language by: DR Eva Tuckyta Sari (@C301)

09:50 - 12:20 : Writing for Professional Purpose by: Maryoso, M.A (@C310)

12:30 - 14:40 : Prose Studies by: Ida Farida Sachmadi, S.S (@C204)

*) Friday

07:30 - 09:50 (Hoemph) : Paper Presentation by: DR Heriyanto (@C204) (for A1 class)

09:20 - 11:40 (still confused with the transition time) : Labwork 3: Specific Interest by: Kasno Pamungkas, M.Hum (@lab 2, C building)

Hwaaaaaaaa........!!! I want to scream aloud but really cant wait for the first day of lecture this 30th of August. *Banyak Makan, banyak minum, tidur cukup, jangan sampe sakit parah lagi seperti semester kemarin! biar IP ga jeblok lagi.... aza aza hwaiting!!! :)

C L O S E

Sometimes you know me
Sometimes you don't
Sometimes I know You
Sometimes I don't

Sometimes You need me
Sometimes You don't
and neither do I

We laugh, we cry, we share, we talk

Close
Clos e
Clo se
Cl ose
C lose

C L O S E

is it a big deal if we sometimes don't?

Joy of Life : Children's Insight

 

 

Milad = Hari Lahir

Bagi banyak orang, hari ulang tahun atau yang sering gw sebut sebagai hari lahir adalah hari yang paling ditunggu-tunggu dalam satu tahun perjalanan hidup. Banyak yang mengharapkan pada hari tersebut, orang-orang terdekat minimal mengingat, mengucapkan selamat dan doanya dalam menjalani hidup di umur yang baru, bertambah satu (atau berkurang satu?) atau mengharapkan seseorang yang spesial dalam hidup lo memberikan surprise atau minimal memberikan hadiah spesial untuk anda...

Reflection

Hanya berfikir kalau keadaaan sudah berubah (lagi), jadi harus menyesuaikan diri lagi dengan keadaan yang baru. Tapi yang paling penting cuma gimana caranya untuk bertanggungjawab atas semua keputusan yang diambil dan semua yang harus dihadapi. 23 sks (dari 24 yang diperbolehkan). Mungkin saya harus berterimakasih kepada pihak jurusan yang kebijakannya sungguh di luar dugaan saya. sempat konsultasi dengan orang tua bahwa sks akan ditentukan dari IP semester lalu. mengingat IP saya yang sangat "mengenaskan" semester lalu, saya hanya bisa pasrah dan berdoa supaya saya kuat kalau harus menunda beberapa mata kuliah demi "mengulang".

Wish a Wish

I don't know what 18 means to me. it's full of happiness in the beginning and full of sadness in the ending. My life turns blue. Everytime I see the sky, it's all grey, and when I see the others laughing, I see it blurry even I wear my minus three cylinder one glasses.

Tonight, I spend this birthday's eve alone in my darkly room. Thinking of all my sins, all my faults, and how loser I am. I don't think it's good for me to stay alive, but I hold on with this fragile heart. I have to thank my stubbornness to make me still standing till' today (I owe you one), also thank God for giving me my stubbornness. It's my only strength for sure...

Super Junior - No Other (Music Video)

*) Roman Lyrics

*) Reff [Siwon] 

Neo gateun saram tto eopseo juwireul dureobwado geujeo georeohdeongeol eodiseo channi
Neo gatchi joheun saram neo gatchi joheun saram neo gatchi joheun ma eum neo gatchi joheun seonmul

[Yesung] 

Neomu dahaeng iya aesseo neorel jikyeojul geu sarami baro naraseo eodiseo channi
Na gatchi haengbokhan nom na gatchi haengbokhan nom na gatchi unneun geureon choegoro haengbokhan nom

[Ryeowook] 

Neoui ttatteuthan geu soni chagapge, chagapge shikeo isseul ttae
Neoui ganghaetdeon geu maeumi nal karopge sangcheo badasseul ttae
[Donghae] 

Naega jaba julge anajulge salmyeoshi, geugeoseuro jakeun iroman dwendamyeon johgesseo
Eonjena deo maneun geol haejugo shipeun nae mam neon da mollado dwae

[Kyuhyun] 

Gaseumi sorichyeo marhae jayuro-un nae yeonghon
Eonjena cheo-eumui imaeum euro neoreul saranghae georeo watdeon shiganboda nameun nari deo manha

*) Reff [Heechul] 

Neo gateun saram tto eopseo juwireul dureobwado geujeo georeohdeongeol eodiseo channi
Neo gatchi joheun saram neo gatchi joheun saram neo gatchi joheun ma eum neo gatchi joheun seonmul
[Eunhyuk] 

Neomu dahaeng iya aesseo neorel jikyeojul geu sarami baro naraseo eodiseo channi
Na gatchi haengbokhan nom na gatchi haengbokhan nom na gatchi unneun geureon choegoro haengbokhan nom

Rampai, si Tomat Cherry

Pagi ini, si Farah Quinn the "Ala Chef" show ngambil lokasi di Bandar Lampung tepatnya di Taman Wisata Bumi Kedaton. Nah, di salah satu masakannya dia pake benda kecil mirip tomat gitu. Nah, kalo di Lampung gw biasa nyebutnya rampai. Obviously, rampai ini jenis tanaman yang aneh, kenapa? karena bisa tumbuh sendiri tanpa ditebar benih... (Suer dah! di rumah gw sering banget ni pohon tumbuh sendiri selain cabe rawit dan cabe hijau). Dan juga, tanaman ini sering gw temuin di sela-sela rerumputan tumbuh dengan liar.

Intro - #1 post

Annyeong....

This is my first post for this blog (#tepukjidat). Pasti banyak yang bertanya; "Ngapain dit buat blog lagi??"  or "why dont you make a tumblr rather than making another blog??" well, gw masih ngerasa nyaman dengan konsep blogger.com dan agaknya media ini masih gw pertahankan... #senyumlicik