it was happened about one and a half year ago, when I was in my last year of High School. I fought with my "only" bestfriend that I ever had. I mad at her because of a silly reason, "she didn't care about me and left me alone when I really needed her at that time". I became unstable after I was rejected by UI, UGM, UNS, and Unila (what a strike, isn't it? lol). Unfortunately, she had already been accepted in UGM at Public Health department. I thought that she was very lucky to be accepted while I hadn't. I was too scared, I NEED HER BADLY! I forgot that the only campus she wanted to study in was just "Medical Faculty, University of Indonesia". She wanted to be a doctor because her parents are both doctors. So, as you have predicted, she rejected UGM. My anger became uncontrolled anymore. I mad at her. I didn't talk to her until the graduation day. Moreover, She was very close to one of my biology teacher in GO, where I had my extra private class for preparing all the university tests and National Final Examination. He is a JERK! Totally JERK! I hate him so much for everything he had done to my bestfriend and all the teachers there. (I can't tell you the whole story, sorry. If you know it, you will be as mad as me)
But one day, he sat in front of me while I was studying. He said something that I will never forget till now. He said: "Friendship is not about being possessive. You can't force someone to be with you all the time. She has a right to do the things that she prior to do for her life. You are totally a bad friend to threaten your bestfriend like that, you know. don't you understand that she needs your support to reach her dream to studying in UI's Medical faculty, huh? don't you understand that she is also frustrated to be rejected by UGM's and Undip's Medical Faculty? DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT?? SHE NEEDS YOU BUT SHE NEVER ASKS YOU TO! Shame on You girl. Remember this: You will regret yourself when you lose her. You are so stupid."
For months, I didn't communicate with her. I decided to study at home and never go to the private lesson anymore. After I was rejected by ITB twice and have been accepted to English Department Unpad, I talked to her about what he had said to me months ago. She said: "I have to say that jerk's thoughts were true. How could he said to you like that? hhah, forget it."
After that, I learned not to force my friends to be with me all the time. I never ask something that I can handle by myself even it is very hard to be solved alone, never be jealous with them, and easily shows my anger. I want to be a tolerate friend and try not to be such a selfish and possessive friend who shows my ego. They live their life, I live mine. Including my boy. I often ask him to be mad at me if I am being possessive (because I know that he doesn't like threaten possessively, and so do I). I don't want to do the same mistakes anymore.
Now, her dream came true. She continue her study at UI's medical faculty. Although I can't continue my study at STEI ITB, I'm happy to see her happy studying there. She deserve it more than me.
I hope you learn something from my write that your friends must be love and care about you although they are far away from you.
And one thing, after one and a half year, I have to confess something:
DARN YOU JERK YOU TAUGHT ME A THING......!!! (sigh)
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