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Thursday, November 25, 2010

I Thought.........

"I just feel like I really need to lock myself in a room and not think about anything but writing."

 -Carrie Bradshaw, Sex and the City 2-

I'm just too exhausted with all the assignments I've to do, all the lectures, and ALL THE SLIDES AND PRESENTATIONS...

I just need a break... 2 days-off'll be better... :(

Friday, November 19, 2010

Just a Quote

The Greatest thing about being writer is uncovering the truth...                            
-Harriet the Spy: Blog Wars-

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Guilty Pleasure Song of the Week

This is a song from 2PM titled Tik Tok... it was released on the beginning of this year but I've just listened this week... lol
This is the lyrics...

*) Hangul

(준호) Nobody knows 내가 매일 너를 이렇게 원하는걸
무대 뒤에서 널 안을때마다 내 가슴이 터지는걸
(찬성) 사람들 앞에서 우린 어색하게 인사하지만
돌아서고나면 너를 제일 잘 아는건 나잖아

(우영) 니 눈빛으로 말하는게 더 크게 들려 내 귀엔 그래
(닉쿤) 날 원하는게 너 목마른 게 우린 서로에게 이렇게 미쳐

(준수) 아무도 몰래 사랑하는게 니가 정말 내 여자라는게
매일 나를 너무 미치게 해 이렇게 너를 너를 원해

(우영) 이리와봐 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok)
너만 보여 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok)
하루종일 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok)
내 가슴이 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok, Tik Tok)

(윤은혜) Nobody knows 너와 내가 매일 이렇게 사랑하는걸
너 아닌 누구도 들어올 자린 없는걸 내 가슴에

(우영)
(Tik) 첨부터 알았어 난
(Tik) 뭔가가 있었어 넌
(Tik) 니가 나를 보는 그 눈빛에

(준호)
(Tok) 짜릿한 니 사랑에
(Tok) 나는 늘 목마른걸
(Tok) 아무도 몰래 널 자꾸 찾게되

(준수) 아무도 몰래 사랑하는게 니가 정말 내 여자라는게
매일 나를 너무 미치게 해 이렇게 너를 너를 원해

(우영) 이리와봐 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok)
너만 보여 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok)
하루종일 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok)
내 가슴이 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok, Tik Tok)

(택연) 넌 나만의 Star 아무도 아무것도 몰라 너는 걱정마
내 두 눈을 봐 내가 지켜줄께 나는 이렇게 니 옆에 있어
(It’s our Secret It’s our Secret It’s our Secret it’s taking control of me)
모두의 시선을 넘어 만나는 만남 부담은 내게 덜어
꿈속에선 남들처럼 너와 당당히 손을 잡고 걸어
매일 바쁜 하루 속 내 일과 꿈 마저도 잊게 만드는 우리 사랑
멈출 줄 모르는 시계바늘

(준수) 아무도 몰래 사랑하는게 니가 정말 내 여자라는게
매일 나를 너무 미치게 해 이렇게 너를 너를 원해

(우영) 이리와봐 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok)
너만 보여 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok)
하루종일 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok)
내 가슴이 (Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok, Tik Tok)

Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok x3
Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok, Tik Tok

When Jerk Talks About Friendship

it was happened about one and a half year ago, when I was in my last year of High School. I fought with my "only" bestfriend that I ever had. I mad at her because of a silly reason, "she didn't care about me and left me alone when I really needed her at that time". I became unstable after I was rejected by UI, UGM, UNS, and Unila (what a strike, isn't it? lol). Unfortunately, she had already been accepted in UGM at Public Health department. I thought that she was very lucky to be accepted while I hadn't. I was too scared, I NEED HER BADLY! I forgot that the only campus she wanted to study in was just "Medical Faculty, University of Indonesia". She wanted to be a doctor because her parents are both doctors. So, as you have predicted, she rejected UGM. My anger became uncontrolled anymore. I mad at her. I didn't talk to her until the graduation day. Moreover, She was very close to one of my biology teacher in GO, where I had my extra private class for preparing all the university tests and National Final Examination. He is a JERK! Totally JERK! I hate him so much for everything he had done to my bestfriend and all the teachers there. (I can't tell you the whole story, sorry. If you know it, you will be as mad as me)

But one day, he sat in front of me while I was studying. He said something that I will never forget till now. He said: "Friendship is not about being possessive. You can't force someone to be with you all the time. She has a right to do the things that she prior to do for her life. You are totally a bad friend to threaten your bestfriend like that, you know. don't you understand that she needs your support to reach her dream to studying in UI's Medical faculty, huh? don't you understand that she is also frustrated to be rejected by UGM's and Undip's Medical Faculty? DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT?? SHE NEEDS YOU BUT SHE NEVER ASKS YOU TO! Shame on You girl. Remember this: You will regret yourself when you lose her. You are so stupid."

For months, I didn't communicate with her. I decided to study at home and never go to the private lesson anymore. After I was rejected by ITB twice and have been accepted to English Department Unpad, I talked to her about what he had said to me months ago. She said: "I have to say that jerk's thoughts were true. How could he said to you like that? hhah, forget it."

After that, I learned not to force my friends to be with me all the time. I never ask something that I can handle by myself even it is very hard to be solved alone, never be jealous with them, and easily shows my anger. I want to be a tolerate friend and try not to be such a selfish and possessive friend who shows my ego. They live their life, I live mine. Including my boy. I often ask him to be mad at me if I am being possessive (because I know that he doesn't like threaten possessively, and so do I). I don't want to do the same mistakes anymore.

Now, her dream came true. She continue her study at UI's medical faculty. Although I can't continue my study at STEI ITB, I'm happy to see her happy studying there. She deserve it more than me.

I hope you learn something from my write that your friends must be love and care about you although they are far away from you.

And one thing, after one and a half year, I have to confess something:
DARN YOU JERK YOU TAUGHT ME A THING......!!! (sigh)

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Between Expectation, Dreams, and Desire

If I have a chance to say it (again) to you that my sophomore year is truly "amazingly" crazy, seems like I'm going to be treated as "ambitious" "arrogant" person(or perhaps you have another words which are perfectly describe my thoughts, eh?) if you read this post. However, my thoughts are just concern about "what am I going to do next after my university years??". It bothers me a lot! because if I planned and the plan didn't go on its tracks, I would be suffering (again) for the second times! and I WONT...!! but if I didn't plan, I would be overboard when the graduation comes. 

Does it sound too dramatic?? and pathetic??

Wednesday, November 03, 2010

I Don't Believe I Wrote This for My First Prose Essay Assignment... -__-"


Dita Ayu Astari Darwin
180410090009
Class A
Bridget Jones’ Diary as an Epistolary Novel
Fielding's Bridget Jones 'Diary takes the epistolary novel to the digital age by introducing digital communication to the genre which transforms interpersonal relations. By plotting using the digital communication, I argued that a logical point of view I labelled “Myopia” affects the focalizer point of view. By using e-mail and text message, the relationship between Bridget and Daniel becomes more private notwithstanding the fact that they are in the different room in their office, seems like there is a private connection between them although there are a lot of people working in the same building, same office, and same floor. Nobody knows what they are talking about in e-mail and they don’t know what happen around the office during the e-mailing. It is ironic because Bridget and Daniel and the other workers are in the same building, same office, and the same floor.  Perhaps, Perpetua don’t know that Bridget and Her Boss, Daniel e-mailing almost every day during the work hour. It can be worse because Bridget desk is beside hers (in the end she knew it and startled). It means that because of the digital communication, the interpersonal relationship clearly seen inside the focalizer, blurred outside the focalizer. As the work of myopia disease, eyes can’t see anything when it is far and clearly seen when it is near, based on the passage: